today…

this is one of my most enjoyed day!!! hahahaha

 first of all, today was the orientation for my oh so awesome internship (*sarcasm at its best), then i thought i was going to be super late. and screw the mrt it was so hot in there. after the orientation i went with some of my friends to grab a bite at gateway. then we started talking about books and stuff. and i learned that they were planing to write a book and they were discussing about characters to put in there. but i wentalong first because i have to met bebe and rins at rob. ermita. then we are like totally thrilled because we saw awesome people cosplaying. then, i really didnt expect it, i saw my bestfriend and we like super hug and kiss there at the moment we saw each other. hahahaha… been such a long time since we saw each other! we like super talk with each other and he invited me to come at ozine fest and i super wanna go even though i have internship at that day. then one of rins friend invited me to cosplay hahaha, i so wanna do that except for a fact that i dont have budget and i have hectic schedules. but still the convention was fun. we saw people we knew and meet new friends. hahahaha

but then we sadly have to go home i said bye to bes and rins to her friends. but on the way home mami-pur texted us that she was at moa. so we just abruply decided to go. lol. we just said a few hi and hellos. tease each other and just simply bonded for an hour. the thing is we really have to go home because we have certain curfews.

but the day was super fun. hahaha. super stress relieving. and i so wanna go to ozine fest next week. and i want to cosplay but i have no budget. and i wanna have some summer outing! hahahaha but oh well come what may!!! =)

summer sunshine:)

here we are the students, who are so full of work loads during the whole year, welcoming with arms wide open the summer sunshine… well, technically for me i have to finish my oh so awesome internship before i could really feel the love of summer. and the thing is that i also need to pray to not fail any of my courses so that i wouldnt need to balance my whole summer just to make it out alive for the next semester. 

but oh well, for me summer is something that gives you lots of memories. its the time to discover new things, hobbies and meet new friends. its the time to create special memories with people we love. its the time to let ourselves loose from the daily stress that builds up during the whole year. its the time for us to relax have fun and make our way through the dazzling sun.

i am grateful for my last summer because it was one of those times where you have experience the tough times but after everything you make it out alive.  last summer was the time i have to face the consequences of my actions. it was the time where i finally gained almost the full trust of my parents. it was the time when finally celebrated my birthday with friends. it was the time where i drank to my limit and had fun doing it. LOL. it was the time where i got and felt a little closer wit my family.

so here i am starting to welcome the summer ahead. wishing, praying and hoping that this summer would be memorable. and feeling excited of what to come and bracing myself for it, and just go through this summer with a smile and end it with grateful heart.

i think i am starting to like you…

do you sometimes feel that life played a really big and crazy joke on you?

well, right now it feels that way. 

here’s the catch…

i used to like this guy. then, while i was having this crush with him i was getting closer to another guy that i could really tell that is one of my best friends. let’s name the first one as D and the second one as J. 

I really like D up to now, but i know i cant have him. then there’s J. we always eat dinner together its not something that is really arranged or something it simply became a habit.

so J starts telling you “pano na yan pag ma-in love ako sa’yo?” out of the blue, and all the other stupid stuff he could think about like, ” anu gagawin mo pag hinalikan kita?” . What would a girl with a friggin broken heart feel. So we became closer… but you know what at that time i couldnt even think of an answer cause i didnt really consider it. for me he was just a friend period. 

we are like each others shoulder to cry on. a friend that can be relied on through tough times. someone you can share anything. someone you can do anything with.

so what if something’s starting to arise from this heart and emotions that are mixed up and confused got build up? where does that leave us?

but if you think that that was the catch of everything let me tell you this, i both accused them of being gay. and whats worse is that i told them(D and J) that i thought they were a couple.

well what a messed up thing right? lets just wait up for next time to see what happens….

crushed and broken

Tired of living.

Passed out from striving.

Wrists and heart all bleeding.

Could I still wke up fo another day?

 Listen to my unending symphony

Let your ears bleed fom this song

Living for nohing

Losing eveything

Could you still put a smile on my face?