okay. so i was just contempating in my room when i just thought, maybe there is a really clear rule that tells you that you musnt fall for friends. so i texted my bestest girlfriend of what i just thought and she says its about time i think about it. then i started telling her that i was having thoughts that if im going to have a boyfriend again i would want an older and more mature guy this time. then i also said to her that i was having a crush with this guy i am working with at my ojt. and to tell the truth, the guy’s so hot and actually my type! its just that hes almost double my freaking age. so it made me have some really bothering thoughts as usual.
but seriously i do think i would want a more mature and responsible guy this time. im not looking for perfect but guess what, i wont settle for average. and i am saying that i really wouldnt want to fall for a friend ever again.