bad days. :(

this days are so not fun for me. hate the rain. hate stuff that are going around me.

hate the fact that bebe is going abroad in a month. and i hate the fact and obvious thing that a friend is somewhat avoiding me.

theres sqwine flu cases at school. and the world is such a mess.

come on guys lighten up my day.

last june 16 was the day i messed up BIG TIME!

ok i wont elaborate on this because to be honest i cant remember everything well.

last tuesday my friends and i decided to drink to celebrate one of our friend’s start in a new dorm. well i was DEAD DRUNK. and honestly, i was hitting on my friend.

i lost control and sort of mad advances on diner boy. LOL. good thing our friends was there cause i dont know what we may have done if they werent

hahahaah

BIG time mess up! DEAD drunk! was like an animal and the morning after was one of the worst ever!

first day = boring!

today was my first day as a sophomore in college! yey to that!

well actually nothing happened, as in nothing! because our professors had a meeting and we just needed to attend a “non-pharma” class. so its such a bore. had to go to pe which made me really  drowsy because we had to do cheers and meet the professor which really just sucks! i mean come on its the first day! there is nothing else to do!

the first day sucks is so boring! and i didnt get to go to diner boys new dorm. he went to mine during summer, but maybe tomorrow we will get a chance. i missed BPH finally get to see them! and also i missed the bonding and the lunch together with LMS! 

hope to have a better day tomorrow. hahahaah. peace

longing.

i cant explain it. it is something that has kept me awake for the past nights. it is something that has been nagging my gut for this past days.

i long for something. something unknown. i cant figure out what the hell is wrong with me but i cant feel the satisfaction of my everyday life.  i have been trying to fill it up with things and activities. but the thing is nothing works.

what is this? its something that has bothered me for too long.

the one that got away

read this from a friend’s blog and i cant help but mak a post it myself

The One that got Away

Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal
In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with ?and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without realizing it? When you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become deal breakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you’re single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn’t matter.

All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, “What if they were here today?” You’ll wonder, “What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?” That’s what the one that got away is. The biggest “What if?” you’ll have in your life.

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that you’re already with the one you’re with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a “might have been,” but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different. What do you do if it’s not yet too late? Simple find him, find her. Because the very existence of a “the one that got away” means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got this one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be “the one that got away” as well for the person who is your “the one that got away.”

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it’ll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I’m thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, “Hey you, you’re the one that ALMOST got away.”

 love this article even though it was ages ago. when i was reading this it made some sense. it made me think of my current stuff and yeah mabe, why not, and there is nothing wrong with it, go for the one you feel thats right for you. it doesn’t matter who he is. if its him. its him.

swine flu is now in pandemic level 6!

today i heard in the news that the cass off A(H1N1) or commonly known as swine flu increased. 

this freaks me out. the number is increasing and it is very risky.  this is the first in forty years. 

fine i read in an  article in yahoo that it is not severe than a common seasonal flu. but still it may turn into a more dangerous form. so i really hope that it would not really get worst. school have opened up late because of the cases that grew larger. and i hope that it would really be treated and that may we have vaccines to fight against this disease.

lets just hope and pray that we may not be stricken by this virus. and also, lets pray for those people that have been affected. lets pray for our friends, family and all loved ones, that we could survive this new challenge ahead of us.

independence day

today is independence day here at my beloved country philippines.

im going to get registered this coming monday so i could vote this coming 2010. i cant really say that i trust the current government, but you see i would want to exercise my rights to vote that’s why im going to get registered. in my seventeen years of life, i may be too young to say that i have seen everything, but i could sa that i already saw a lot of flaws in this government. the arroyo administration have been in power for a long time. and i witnessed a lot of faults in it. i am not saying that those that wants to run for power now may give a better life, but what im saying is that, this country needs a new leader and a fresh start. 

i really hope that the constitutional assembly that is starting to form will not succeed. because if our government turns into a parliament. the arroyo administration may have another chance for power. and that would mean that our chance for a new start will vanish in thin air. 

this days i feel that independence is not something that is freely enjoyed here in our country. fine, we may have our rights and everything, like the government doesnt give a damn on where we use our money and what we do with our lives, but i could also see that there is not much freedom in the press. peole in media cant fully express themselves and that if they say anything that would offend the current government, they may get a lot of lawsuits coming. so i really hope for a new start.

our country needs a little freshening up. it needs a little change. and i beleive that that change must come from the youth today like myself.

Pussycat dolls live in manila!

last night i watch the PCD’s concert at moa concert grounds along with some of my friends. we had a blast and the crowd was so awesome. there were over whelming groups of people from every corners.

LOVED THE NIGHT! one of the most awesome nights i had! 

love the rave lights, the hanapan in the crowd and the ohhh so great screaming because of nicole’s and the other doll’s singing and dancing.

gosh… id turn gay just for nicole. hahahaha… she is suprer and oh so damn sexy. and the dolls are just as good too. loved them all.

by the way i had an awesoe time with mai and ivee when we were waiting for the time of the concert. we ate at tokyo-tokyo, watch ivee kicked an insect from a wall. had lots of fun playing at the seaside. and of course had an awesome lots of picture taken before and during the event.

RANDOM: good thing i brought a spare battery. LOL. nonetheless i loved the night and had fun all the way!

yaoi…

this is term used for boyxboy relationship in japan. well this genre varies from manga, anime and live actions. 

AND…

i simply cant get enough of this. to be honest i have been fascianated by this since  i was in high school. and to be honest i love this genre. well im not saying that this genre is acceptable to everyone.

and maybe the reason of why  i like this is because i am open to this kind of stuff. i mean i dont mind same sex relationships. (*BAD ME*)

so… i simply want to share this cause i just finished watching one and i simply just love it.

i miss the school days.

coming from me this may sound weird and all. but i really do miss having classes, hectic schedule, long and stressing hours of sitting in class, and doing school work.

because of the swine flu cases in  some of the few major universities and schools here in manila, the classes have been postponed til june 15. i really miss classes and you know what. i miss college bestfriend/dinner boy. hahahahaha. i need some stress to get some stuff get going.and i realy miss eating out with dinner boy. i also miss LMS. tsk. i miss BPH. i want to have classes. and i really hope that this virus called A(H1N1) or more commonly known as swine flu would be ceased. cause its really scary to go outside and that i need to go out!. 

RANDOM: im excited to go tomorrow to the pcd concert. i hope there’s no swine flu there. (*praying*)

killing boredom

ok. so smmer is ending and i am left with nothing to do. lol. 

so here i am. soing things i do when i have nothing else to do. painting paper maches and learning to dance. hahahaha. i do ap to my creative self from tme to time. hahahahaha so i am still in the process of drying the paper maches so…i am left with nothing else to do. so i decided i want to learn how to dance jai ho(you are my destiny) by the pussycat dolls and ar rahman… 

hmmm… i wanna learn this. and gosh im excited to watch the pussycat dolls perform live this coming thursday! hahahaha im going to watch it with my friends and i am so excited. ahahahah

the stupid paper…

ok. so here’s the story. i went to maila city hll to meet my mom and aunt with my cousin. my mom went ahead of me because she went somewhere else first. i was suppose to go to my dorm to get some things and papers that are needed to be submitted after my internship. i was so tired that i decided to just ask my mom to do it after lunch. so we had lunch talked for the whole time and pigged out. so after lunch i stayed at my aunts office with my cousin and my mom went to my dorm.

when my mom got home i was so stunned when she asked…”sino si reyes?” and i was like… “HUH? anu? sino?”… (things dont settle to me easily.) then she said that she saw a paper saying stuff and there was a signature and all… then i suddenly realize that it was a paper made by my friend when i stll have a  crush with anime boy. hahahaha.. then my momwont stop bugging me. then we all started laughing and giggling saying stuff likehis  boyfriend. gosh! i was like super ashamed! hahaha then i just said it was just a random thing.then  went to the mall so ahead of them. gosh i want to scream! hahahaha… i literally forgot that i still have that paper. shucks. hahahaha

last day of internship

today was the last day of my internship. it was a blast! because the branch manager which i loathe the most in the branch wasn’t there. LOL! i treated the whole branch with pancit malabon and some drinks and ice cream. 

i am so gonna miss my branch and i am going to make an effort to stay in touch with them. hope i could still see them after the end of this break

Swine Flu

ok so i was chatting with my good friend, and one of the TOOKs, mai when she told me about the news that A(H1N1) or more commonly known as swine flu have hit DLSU. i was really shocked. at first, i thought it was just a joke. like some prank spam messages being passed around. then i heard it on the news. OMG! it true. and take note, classes has been like suspended for around ten days. and i think all things are under observation. GOSH!!! then i was reading some stats and comments in facebook saying stuff like they are wishing it hits their school as well. AND I WAS LIKE THINKING… DUH!!! WOULD YOU WANT TO BE AFFECTED BY THIS DISEASE? i am not one of those people that love school and stuff like that. BUT! i wouldnt wish a catastrophe would hit my school just to have no classes and have a vacation longer than usual.

well im really thinking how shallow would it be if you would wish that a disease would hit your school. well im not saying any names here cause i wouldnt want to offend people. but honey this are my thoughts and im really damn against it hitting philipines. i really hope that the case wouldnt spread and i really hope it doesnt hit any of my friends, family, acquaintances and just about everybody i know and have a connection with. cause this is not a joke. it means that we are in danger and as far as i read in the net. there is still no cure nor vaccine against A(H1N1) viru. so baby think before you wish for something you might regret. 

daily news. whatever

well im really bored and i just cant do anything else but blog. LOL

well i was watching the news a while ago and i cant help but see the joke in what the politicians are doing. ok its not like im such an expert regarding the matter but you see. they were like discussing all the stuff about hayden kho and katrina halili. and i was thinking, fine what the big deal with a freakin’ sex video. im thinking fine they made a lot of noise. but you see, shouldnt they be like discussing about the chacha that was suppose to happen if all the congressmen agrees? 

well im just collecting thoughts. but i just cant see the big deal about everything. cause there shouldnt be an issue such as this if in the first place a certain video do not exist. 

fine im talking all cynical and all but shouldnt the senators putting their energy into something that would really make our country a little better than with a never ending discussion of a bunch of rich kids and actors screwed up video?

 RANDOM: i really need a new broadband. i need internet!

start of the june

this is my first post for the month of june.

 its amazing how a lot of things happen in just a span of a small time.

just this afternoo. i had to extend for about  30 minutes because the pharmacist in charge is getting a cold. so im suppose to meet ivee after my duty, so she waited outside na lang. it didnt take us that long because we were just wrapping some paper tabs.

so ivee and i went to sm. i was planning to buy a book by BOB ONG that was newly released, but sadly it was out of stock. so we just roamed around first. then we ate dinner . had a few laughs and many of the random quirkiness. LOL. 

then when i was on my way home i bump into my old teacher. SR BAGAY! so unexpected. he was like all biceps til now. hahaha. i mean he was so macho! as in like in the yummy way. we exchange a few greetings, stories and had alittle chat in our days after st. paul. he still is the funny and lovable teacher we had during our high school days. super love him.

 then justnow. when i amstarting to browse the net, i had a few conversations with rin and stef. stef is still not over her damned relationship with her x. and i was like heard that a thousand times. but shes still my friend so im still lending some shoulder. but get over it. some wounds wont mend unless you let it be treated.

 but this is just a start of a new month. there are still many things that might happen. 

RANDOM: i want a new wireles broadband for my latop. because classes are going to start and i might start having lesser post if i cant get a faster broadband. LOL