I noticed that these past three years i tend to get really moody, depressed, cranky, and all the every possible worst moods you’ll ever get. i dont know, it’s just that when May starts to come around the corner, i always ends up not being in the mood. And these past three years it had gotten worse.
I like birthdays, but the thing is i don’t really like mine. and i don’t even have a special reason. I like the day because it is my bithday but having to deal with all the preparations, it makes me sick. I don’t like planning, cause it is one of my biggest flaws. And honestly I don’t like being treated special just because it is my birthday, and after that, evrything will go back to how it was. It makes me feel a little bit off.
well, i hope everything will go well on my party next week, cause i have been having doubts that all that i have invited will come. i just wishh they would. but in the same time, i am not really expecting. it’s just that i just want to spend that day with all the people that are important to me.