not so better days

ok so here is the awesome catch aparently diner boy likes my anak hahaha awesom right how sarcastic could that get. oh well i have my eyes back on anime guy again. he is still one of a kind. but the thing is i also like his sister (bisexual) LOL! 

so i got really pissed just this afternoon cause if you have read my post from long ago, the one entitled SADFACE, the story in this paragraph starts from that.  i hate the fact that the one who texted me whom i really thought was somebody else was like.EQUATION:TIFF= SAM! damn! i knew who that girl was! and damn i am pissed for the fact that my friends knew about it but THEY didnt told me!

 now i feel that i really cant put my all in them even though we are like close now. sad days! shet talaga!

Swine Flu

ok so i was chatting with my good friend, and one of the TOOKs, mai when she told me about the news that A(H1N1) or more commonly known as swine flu have hit DLSU. i was really shocked. at first, i thought it was just a joke. like some prank spam messages being passed around. then i heard it on the news. OMG! it true. and take note, classes has been like suspended for around ten days. and i think all things are under observation. GOSH!!! then i was reading some stats and comments in facebook saying stuff like they are wishing it hits their school as well. AND I WAS LIKE THINKING… DUH!!! WOULD YOU WANT TO BE AFFECTED BY THIS DISEASE? i am not one of those people that love school and stuff like that. BUT! i wouldnt wish a catastrophe would hit my school just to have no classes and have a vacation longer than usual.

well im really thinking how shallow would it be if you would wish that a disease would hit your school. well im not saying any names here cause i wouldnt want to offend people. but honey this are my thoughts and im really damn against it hitting philipines. i really hope that the case wouldnt spread and i really hope it doesnt hit any of my friends, family, acquaintances and just about everybody i know and have a connection with. cause this is not a joke. it means that we are in danger and as far as i read in the net. there is still no cure nor vaccine against A(H1N1) viru. so baby think before you wish for something you might regret. 

crushed and broken

Tired of living.

Passed out from striving.

Wrists and heart all bleeding.

Could I still wke up fo another day?

 Listen to my unending symphony

Let your ears bleed fom this song

Living for nohing

Losing eveything

Could you still put a smile on my face?

why did i create this blog?

 why did i create this blog?…

hmmm… one of the reasons is privacy, i have other blog accounts but i want something new and a little private. the next is that i want to have a little space. and this site offer a more personalized domain. I also  need a little place to let myself out.

so… while creating this account i was really into to edge of typing out the words i want to say for a long time…

the thing is that the start of this year is really bad for me… especially my luck. last week has been one of the worst week ever for me. it all started with pictures that have been erased without your knowledge, getting a head on encounter with what you are trying to avoid, getting a call from a person you are trying to run away from. that will just get you and  i was really stressing over petty matters and i was feeling crap.

badluck in love life, schoolwork, family problems, unfriendly encounters, lossing the sense of belongingness.

i might say that if i am the one who will read this blog, i would also say that this is just too shallow. but try having it for a whole week straight ang still counting it. wont you feel pissed off, cheated and just plain wrong.

i love taking snapshots of people and pictures of me with my friends. but when you dont even have a copy of a recent photo you just took and that photo is with someone you really like… grrrr… that is just so great and fabulous! harhar

im a pretty territorial person, my being an only child might explain that part, but i just cant get territorial over something that isn’t yours.  i have someone, a friend, i like him to the point i cant loose him. almost everybody already know that i like him, and i feel that what i feel for him is much deeper than what i am willing to show. but having a friend that almost fell the same way as you do for that someone, will make you put on your brakes. then you would know, that the guy already have a special someone that he is just isn’t willing to let you know. damn thats just too great. then a friend will start teasing you about what you feel and everything will just get too complicated.

then everything will just become pretty unfair. wont you feel that the world is making fun of you? wont you feel that karma has been multiplied over a threefold? wont you feel cheated by fate? 

this post is going nowhere, its just a need to vent out and feel a little calmer. oh! and wait i just want to share that i cut my hair yesterday. one of the ways i feel that my problems might go away.