broken bonds

to start things off, the reason why i have been really down and uncaring lately is because i am fed up with somebody. 

i am starting to loss my trust in J. its just because his over sensitivity towards what we say about him and his lack of sensitivity from what he is saying is the cause of this.  im a good friend but when you hit me below the belt and you still haven’t realize it, then that’s where were going to have  a problem. 

well to just give a gist of this whole thing - too much familiarity leads to disgust and broken bonds cant be easily mended-

not so better days

ok so here is the awesome catch aparently diner boy likes my anak hahaha awesom right how sarcastic could that get. oh well i have my eyes back on anime guy again. he is still one of a kind. but the thing is i also like his sister (bisexual) LOL! 

so i got really pissed just this afternoon cause if you have read my post from long ago, the one entitled SADFACE, the story in this paragraph starts from that.  i hate the fact that the one who texted me whom i really thought was somebody else was like.EQUATION:TIFF= SAM! damn! i knew who that girl was! and damn i am pissed for the fact that my friends knew about it but THEY didnt told me!

 now i feel that i really cant put my all in them even though we are like close now. sad days! shet talaga!

sorry but i have to say this.

ok so ganito kasi yan. im a good friend pero theres like an extent lang na pwede kong maitolerate yung mga kagagahan nya. anu ba its been THREE LONG YEARS  di ako santo na hindi magtatampo at mag rereact ng masama kung nafefeel ko na, na hindi mo man lang pinapahalagahan yang sarili mo. mahal kita. pero hindi kita makakausap ngayon. masyado na akong naubusan ng masasabi sayo.
wag mo ng hayaan na saktan ka pa nya. matutu kang magmahal ng iba. napakadame pa dyan. at ALAM mo ang DAHILAN kung bakit hindi pwede kayo maging kayo. WALA akong karapatan na magsalita sa love or anything because i know that i still have a lot to learn at masyado akong mabilis magkagusto at magsawa sa isang tao. pero ito ang alam ko. kahit mahal ko ang isang tao, hindi ko sya hahayan na saktan ako ng sobra pa sa kaya kong matngap. ciguro nga d q pa naramdaman ang naramdaman mo para dyan sa taong yan. pero i think and feel that i can distinguish LOVE from OBSESSESSION.
matawag mo man akong masamang kaibigan dahil tatalikdan kita kung kelan mo ko kelangan, pero matatawag naman din kitang ganun. hindi mo ba naisip na nasaktan din anamn ako nang hindi mo man lang pinakikingan yung mga payo ko. at hindi mo man lang ba naisip na sadyang pinagisipan at hinugot ko pa un sa kasulok-sulukan ng puso ko para lang may maitulong ako sa yo.
baka magkaroon ng oras n kainin ko lahat ng sinasabi ko dito. pero just let me vent this out. because i had enough of this crap.

crushed and broken

Tired of living.

Passed out from striving.

Wrists and heart all bleeding.

Could I still wke up fo another day?

 Listen to my unending symphony

Let your ears bleed fom this song

Living for nohing

Losing eveything

Could you still put a smile on my face?

sadface =(

so kmusta naman yun. hindi ako magmamalinis na hindi ko din nagawa ang bagay na ito isang beses sa buhay ko, pero, kasi, hindi naman ako manlalaglag ng isang kaibigan sa iba na hindi ko sya makakampihan sa huli. alam ko na magulo, pero, ganun talaga e. i trust people too much. and sometimes i choose the wrong person to put my trust into. 

sinong bang tao ang hindi maiinis kung ikaw e ipapatext ng isang inaakala mong kaibigan na mapagsasabihan mo ng mga problema mo. napakasenseless kasi na ibibigay pa yung number mo para lang ipatext ka sa isang past ng taong gusto mo ngaun. diba nakakairita.  

pero siguro pag mag-sorry din naman sa kin yung “frend” ko na yun, papatawarin ko talaga siya. yung sorry na talagang alam mong hindi nakakaloko at hindi nakakagago.